College? What?

The time for college searching has come. With many possibilities and opportunities to make a wrong decision, it is a confusing time. If I could, I wouldn't go to college. I would stay home for another year or so, and work until I could afford my own place in Hawaii. But what would I do once I got there? I know I am going to run my own business, but I don't know how. Getting my Associates degree in business is what I am going to do. Then I will decide where to go from there. Should I finish up my four years in Hawaii? That would leave me time to search for property and map out my plan. I would be in it all by myself though, and that is definitely something I don't want to do.
I stayed home from school today (probably not the wisest decision, but I was tired :P). I was sitting at the dining room table with my mom like we usually do while we chat about things and she told me how lucky I am. How I have the world in front of me with endless possibilities. She looked a little sad while she said this. I wish I could tell her the same. She would love to move to Hawaii also. She gets emotional even talking about moving there. We went on vacation to Kauai a few years ago and cried when we had to leave. We seriously considered ditching everything at home and becoming beach bums. Then reality hit us and we had to go home. All of us will end up there someday again.
I feel like I have so many years ahead of me, but still not enough to do all that I want. I want to find love, get married. I want to train horses, while making a business out of the tourism industry in Hawaii. I want to travel the world, finish my book, become a famous writer! I want to sing in front of millions of people, I want to bring God into the lives of those who don't believe He exists. I want to make a difference in the world, even if it is so small, only a few people notice.